Gah

Scared for weigh in tomorrow


Don't want to add up today's calories


I know they're well too low, at least the heart palps have gone though


Thank you cider and Xanax


I know I won't have lost enough though


I need to make more of an effort


Hopefully I'm getting back to the old me(even if she was fucked up)


I can't continue being this size anyway






*deep breath* everything will be fine(like I believe that lol)




Also, I've been considering whether to shit into a tub or something(gnarly I know) to decipher whether I'm shitting blood, still won't stop me from using my weapon of choice though.


Maybe I should poo on that spider in my bath, show him who's boss lol, I kid I kid, I'd never do that!