Wednesday, 30 November 2011

Haven't posted in a while(relapse)

This is it, I said I'd give it one more real try... I can't do it any more, I can't pretend I'm not me, four months on and I'm still binging and I've gained 31 lbs.
Never again, I'll purge what I want when I want, this is just me. It's only an illness if I make it that way, this is just me, it's what I'm like, it's how I eat.
The only time I'm productive and actually cope is when I'm purging or restricting and if I'm honest, really, truly, properly honest, I'd rather die thin than live fat.
So that's the end of that chapter.
Oh, I have a poorly chest and a headache too. :(