I wish I was throwing up 5 times a day again, I wish I was back a my LW(189, still overweight lol) again.
I would never allow myself to gain back to this.
I wish I was thinner, it would make me happier, it did make me happier.
Crazy, but happy(ish), manic is good, I want that back, and more.
I want to be thinner.