Sunday, 17 June 2012

Back with a bang, I think(I hope)

I'm happy that I've thrown up all of what I've eaten today.

I'm happy that I can feel the little flutters in my chest start again.

I'm happy that I feel like I can cope and move without food inside me.

I'm happy that I'm terrified to eat again today.

I'm happy that I don't plan on eating until tomorrow evening.

I'm happy that I have to purge anything that's not a safe food.

I am happy that Bulimia is tightening it's grip on me.

And most of all I'm happy that my life seems to have an element of control to it again, finally I can breathe, finally, I don't have to pretend to myself or anyone else that I'm recovering any more.

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