Overdose-type thing

My mum kicked off at me today like she always does today, because she's an emotional wreck(ring any bells?) and started shouting at me, so I ent to my room to get out of the way, so she shouted louder, saying 'get out of my house and never come back' and 'I can't fucking deal with you any more' I dunno, she always says shit like this, but I dunno, it just clicked, I felt like I knew what I had to do, I just calmly walked downstairs, filled up my water bottle and started swallowing paracetamol, I only swallowed like 12 of something,t hen I realised what I was doing and threw them up, ergh I dunno, I'm just such a mess, I don't know what to do with myself, I don't even know what the fuck is wrong with me.