I'm such a retard, it's not even funny...

Gah, sorry to be a downer(not in the syndrome way, in the depressive way lol)

But I cut this morning... I don't even know why, I was bored and grossed out with myself...

My mum's gonna see it, I don't want to hurt her or disappoint her, it's been ages since I've done it.

I don't even know why... it's not like i want to be covered in scars that people will see and judge me by and draw even more attention to my monstrous self.

WTF man, I'm such a douche.


I blame the Gateway Counsellor, he pretty much dared me to do it again and it's been in my mind since, like I was just lying or some shit... whatever, he looks like a paedophile anyway.