Saturday, 2 July 2011

Fuck this recovery shit!


Well after my shortlived Bulimia-busting in the supermarket earlier, I caved, well, didn't even cave, I wasn't even triggered, I was making thai green curry for me and my mum and I decided to go to the shop and buy some sweets(not a binge just a pack of sweets) anyway when I get there I find myself purchasing a big bag of Starburst, a big bag of Revels and a 100g bar of Dairy Milk.(Sad, fat, stupid, greedy whore)

After that, I ate my curry, then purged and now i've just taken six laxatives, I'm not eating for the rest of today, or tomorrow, or the day after, in fact I don't want to eat ever, ever again.

Recovery's going just greatttt.
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4 comments:

  1. Anonymous2 July 2011 at 18:43

    we all have set-backs. you and i have more than the average person, but we can take this shit! because we're awesome. so fuck that set back. fuck it in the arse. you're awesome. you can do anything you set your mind to, even if it takes a little while.
    i took another look at your before and after pics. there's SUCH a fucking difference. you're so much skinnier, amg.
    fucking love you, bitch. xxx

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  2. Dani3 July 2011 at 09:07

    dont giveup onrecovery after one fuck up u have help u have ppl willng to hlep u i would give nething for that so dont give up we all fuck up u just have to ick urself up and keep going

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  3. Anonymous3 July 2011 at 14:44

    I know this feeling WAY too well. I'm sorry recovery isn't going any better, but don't give up on yourself!

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  4. Lulu4 July 2011 at 09:14

    Keep strong! I am in recovery for bulimia and have been for 19 days now. I am self recovering because the 3 month waiting list to get into a clinic just wasn't soon enough. It takes such a huge amount of courage, self discipline and support to manage it. You can't can't can't let this beat you. Refuse to let it beat you, start over tomorrow, just get back on track. I have had one slip up in the last 19 days, where I purged and it felt like complete and utter shit. On top of that, I have had many days where I couldn't even be bothered to get out of bed because I felt like such a disgusting fat cow. You have to push through all the hard feelings, push through them and come out only half burnt :)

    I promise you, with every day that goes by, it'll get a little easier. These last 19 days have been happier than the last 2 years. xxxxxxxxxxxxx

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